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Barbara
Dear Friends in Christ at CLA Church,
I want to share with you the healing that has taken place in my life, because YOU were a really big part of the outcome.
I was in a car wreck on September 2nd, 2004. Three cars piled into the back of me when I was stopped at a light on my way to work one day. In that instant, my life was changed. My body suffered whiplash, a bulged disk at C-6 and C-7, and, post traumatic stress. For five months, it was all I could do just to go to work. I had headaches so bad, the minute I got home at night, I laid down on the couch with my new best friend -- an icepack. I'd go to work, then hit the couch. All outside activities stopped. I quit hanging out with friends, didn't go to choir practice at my church, I just isolated myself in order to survive.
Honestly, I was frightened that I would not be able to work. I've always worked and need a job to make it in this world. I just thought if I didn't get well, I wasn't sure I could take care of myself. These were the negative thoughts that I was entertaining in my head. What If? And that question most often seemed to have a negative answer. The enemy was having his way with me - in spades!
Medically, there were lots of chiropractor appointments, and appointments with a neurologist, an extremity specialist (I suffered tremendous pain in my right arm -- the one I make my living as an administrative assistant). Tests such as an MRI, at CT scan, and appointments for physical therapy, were all among the new path I was walking. I ultimately have had over 150 doctor appointments.
After the headaches went away (5 months), I just couldn't get up off that couch. Unknown to me at the time, it was clinical depression I was suffering from. The doctors weren't able to figure it out, and really weren't helping me much. The whole thing was frustrating me beyond my coping skills. Eventually, my preferred care physician diagnosed my condition and prescribed Cymbalta, an anti-depressant for pain-induced depression.
This is where you come in! I was visiting your church with my daughter, Nicci, and an offer was extended to the congregation to come to the altar for healing. Sister Ruth Ann and Nicci laid hands on me, and other saints among you, and prayed for my healing. It was a heart-felt moment for me to feel God's Love through all of you, and my needs being laid at His feet. When I returned to Tulsa, I asked my women's Sunday School to lay hands on me and pray for me, which they also did. That was in November of 2005.
Today is Palm Sunday. I just wanted to tell you that God has healed me of my depression. I finished the anti-depressants a month ago. No more headaches. My arm is working very well, the trembling I had in my hand is gone. My heart is full of joy. I don't lay on the couch anymore. I've got my life back -- only a better life. Because I can tell you He is the reason I'm well and restored. You were the vessel. Thank you so much.
For those of you suffering with this terrible condition, just know it is possible to be healed from it. There is hope! Depression is a dark, debilitating place. It felt like an elephant had his foot on me and I could physically not move. The slightest event was just too much to deal with. I didn't care about too much.
But now, the sun is out, it is a beautiful day, and God's healing is mine. It was not instantaneous, but it was in the manner He does most things for me -- when I was ready to receive it.
Thank you for your beautiful spirit as a church, and your outreach to those among you who are hurting, sick and needing a doctor -- the ultimate healer -- our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. He binds up our wounds, and makes us whole, so that we can spread His Good News to others.
This experience has just strengthened my witness, and has given me yet another understanding of someone else's journey where I can step in for Jesus and give them His Love and His Encouragement and His Hope for their lives.
About 20 years ago, Jesus revealed to me my purpose for this life. Here is the scripture he gave to me:
Matthew 5:14 Let your light so shine before men that they may see your good works and glorify your Father which is in Heaven.
Thank you, CLA, for helping God turn my light back on!
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